I don't belong here ,

Morning all ,
I'm feeling so depressed , and tired..
tired of looking for happiness,tired of letting tears out , tired of being the guilty one. Tired of knowing the truth that lies . I'm feeling hopeless now , having lots of crisis with him . He really hurts me when i cry , but by just wiping my tears and telling me so stop crying the pain actually heals back . His words is killing me , the way his eyes looked at me as if he understand me . What is this ? I think I'm going mad or maybe I'm just thinking too much . Probably , i should go back to sleep now .

Natt .

I'm sorry if i'm telling u this, because i want you to laugh and be happy ^^

My Conversation With Ze Beloved Brother ,
Zamil Syaheer (:

NattKills says:
thnks /:
hmm i know im a very complicated person kan ..
i'm very emo , i wish im not like this

' zαм-мιαo says:
i put a simple term
men = they are straightfoward
women = they are complicated
its destined to be this way
thats why you see men if they ajak member lepak:
"weh, free tak?"
"asal?"
"jom makan luar"
"wokeh, aku free"
you see, straightfoward

NattKills says:
haha
HAHAHAA

' zαм-мιαo says:
kalau women/girl lain sikit
takboleh macam
"weh, free tak"
later fikir cam err apehal mamat nih
kalau ask
"hey, you free tomorrow babe?"
kang fikir ni apehal nak sweet sweet lak nih
tu pasal laa
hahahaha
tapi girls are interesting creation
i can't deny the fact that they teaches men lots of stuff and life lesson

NattKills says:
HAHA
awww
i like the way u appreciate girlss^^

' zαм-мιαo says:
hahaha mane de, biase je
thanks anyway
but its true though
you pun gelak
ahaha
i pun straightforward

xoxo ,
Natt .

I cried listening to Radiohead-Creep .

Fed up with love life , my life , seriously i want some freedom .

The End

xoxo,
Natt .

I wish i was special , you're so fucking special .

Coiled Up .

Hello , i didn't go to school today , its not that i don't want to go but i slept at 3am last night waiting for my mum to come home , i turned on my alarm , but sadly , i didn't hear my alarm . I woke up at 8 am , and then i burst out with some random swear words and goes back to bed . Lolz , it's been a very bad day for me , i felt really tired . Sigh , and yeah i seriously skipped school a lot this year . I did study really hard , my results aren't that bad , well i still pass (: that's one of the good news , i feel like dropping econ while my friends are dropping Art's mannn idk , i mean i don't like econ ! sighs , still need to work hard on math . I want to go tuition , babah , money please ? and again both of my parents don't really care ): can i just please pretend I'm dead ? pfft . Nonsense natt .

Sincerely ,
xoxo
Natt .

Its not easy to be , ME .

Babe , I'm sorry i have to be this way ... I Love You Soul Sister♥

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Me and Maryna dah okyh (:

VIVA LA ESPANA !!!!!

Paul The Octopus :D

Better Than Your Ex Better Than Your Next

Good Morning ,
Yes. I didn't go to school today . I'm at Desa Petaling . Waiting for my princey to come . Shut up , i have the pussy so i made the rules haha. Listening to Steel Heart - She's Gone , his favourite song . Texting him right now , ugh cepat la dtg HAHA !

It's a fact :D

Whenever i wanted to type my name 'Natasha' it always typed out to be Natsha . Lol . Epic failed of typing my own name . TYPO BITCH HAHA.

hey natt,awak nih saya tengok sebiji macam mizz nina tau.hotstuff.hehe like i'm serious kayh.sumpah you macam dia. :)

Aww i love Mizz Nina ! Haha that is such a compliment ! thnks ! much appreciate :D who r u ? >.<

Try me,NattKillsFormspring♥

Pretty messed up

I am suddenly have the mood to blog , my hand are typing so fast . I want to express my feelings so badly since 2 days back . First of all , i miss my sister nadd . I miss fafa , i feel so lonelyy , well not so lonely with my brotha's n mum here . I guess i just don't have the great feelings around them nymore cause i know they'll gonna be far from me again . 1 more weeks to go . I'm listening to I need You Now on repeat . Seriously , i feel so weak . I wanna cry , but my tears . It doesnt come out . I need someone to hug me now . I'm totally in love with D now , i hope if we meet again we'll have a short conversation and start to know each other more each day . Exams over , now i'm scared for the result , i just felt that i'm gonna get bad result . Sighhhh , I can't hold my tears to long . Seriously whats with my life ? its so unfair but still , STILL with all those every bit and broken pieces of my heart i just keep goin on . Walk in the silent , dying in the inside . Behold , behold natasha , find the strength in yourself . I said to myself . Fuck , fuck my love life . I wish i was never been in love . Tears , i wish i never felt sad , n burst out my tears so badly every single night . I tried , and still tried to accept the way of my life .

who's ur favourite model ?

MEGAN FOX
ADRIANA LIMA
GISELE BUNDCHEN

Try me,NattKillsFormspring♥

do u think ur pretty ?

yes , for me god's creation are all pretty (:

Try me,NattKillsFormspring♥

why do u want to be a model ?

I have a deep passion for fashion ! For me to be a model, it takes more than just pretty face. I think modeling is an expressive art form and tells a story without words. You can show movement in a still picture, and I think that is incredible to be able to have that skill !

Try me,NattKillsFormspring♥

u at school nmpk kinda nerd but at outside. ur SUPER HOT ! ;D

HAHA , okyh thnks :D

Try me,NattKillsFormspring♥

Looks like even school isn't working for you. And you're imperfect in almost every way. That's just ridiculous.

oh really ? i DARE you to put your NAME here or just say it to my face . It is not ridiculous at all . I'm god creation who are you to judge huh ?

Try me,NattKillsFormspring♥

Exam Week ! I'm not a free bitch baby !

Ugh, exam was sucks !
I didn't studied econ last night , i studied the internet instead -.-' so i fuckin screwed my econ answer paper . Babah picked me up from school tday FOR THE FIRST TIME , didn't talk much . He send me to Bangsar n gave me some money . On my way back home , suddenly *in the bus Ez called me then his little sister wanted to talked to me n she was like calling me mummy awww >.< sho cute like that ! she's only 2 y/o , so i don't really understand what she was saying . Haha , so adorable ! oh her name is Dayana (: Uploaded new picture's on FB to make a new default , but it still look sucks . YAY EPIC FAIL Natt -.-' haish .

xoxo,
Natt

exactly Natt ,

“I’m a slut because I’ll wear shorts/skirts and a tank top. I’m a bitch because i don’t let you push me around. I'm a bad girl because i used to drink. I'm a bitch again because i smoke n goes to club n party. I’m a liar because i won’t tell you everything. I’m stupid because sometimes I’m wrong. I’m ugly because my face isn’t perfect. I'm a bad girl again because I've kissed and hug a boy before . I’m a whore because i like boys. I’m annoying because I'm not chill enough. I'm a whore again because i always talk about boys . I’m a loser because I’m not friends with your group. I’m fake because most of the time I’m happy. I’m weird because I’m not like you. I’m controlling because i get mad. Sometimes I’m clingy because i like being around people. I’m greedy because i like to be satisfied. I’m naive because I’m younger than you. I’m conceited because I’m proud of who i am. I’m rude because my manners aren’t perfect. I’m unappreciative because i don’t praise you. So , don’t tell me who i am because i already know bitch , I ALREADY KNOW THAT NOBODY'S PERFECT.’’

NattKills (: